Friday, February 16, 2007

Initiative - Healing of Hurts, Wounds and Doubts

I came back with a heavy heart a few hours ago. Opened the door of my house and there I see a fierce look from my mum. I walked into my room and put down my stuff, wanting to bathe first but guess I went over to my little sister's room to have a chat with her.

Guess what? For one of the most memorable times, we started chatting. As we chat, more of Jesus came in me and I listened to her. As I listen to her, my heart melted. She made me understand the deepest part of her heart. What's the most amazing thing? I prayed for emptiness to come into her heart. And there she is, feeling empty. Nothing can fill her. She knows. That aside, besides the conflict she had with mum, I guess it's just a misunderstanding.

It was tough for her to understand from mum's view. But in the whole conversation, it was about Jesus. I prayed for her leg, her health and skin problem. Prayed for a while and hoping for a miracle. It may not come at once but I guess it will. Soon, it will. The healing took place for her hurts or rather wounds. Doubts are clearing up and I pray that one day, she will take the initiative to know Jesus.

After prayer, I ask if she would talk to mum and be open about what she needs to share to her. She did and now, everything is cleared. I wonder at times, even I, doubt the power of God. He made me and put me in this family for a purpose. I see it now and then. Especially, during this period of time. My hurts, deepest hurts were taken away, wounds healed and restored, doubts are clearing away each day. It takes only one thing..... it's initiative. I initiated and I see Jesus doing something in this family as I pray.

Nothing beats than the love of Jesus, the Most High King. Wonder if you can identify this issue in your family? Hope you can and allow Jesus to be part of the picture, solving your problems in a supernatural way.

Be Blessed!

Tuesday, February 6, 2007

Trust, Perspective & Reality

We live in a world full of mistrust, different perspective (positive/negative) and chose to avoid reality. Living on this Earth, how much do you trust people? What is the extent of Trust? Are we always living in denial? What's our perspective of our future? Is it good or bad?

All these questions came forth as I ask myself, my purpose of living. Since young, I was "Fatherless". My dad wasn't with me, my mum was working and always striving hard for this family, all for one purpose, to live happily as a family. Sometimes, we look back and wonder whether it is really worth it. What do I mean by "Fatherless"? I lived through most of my life with a dad who spent his life away from the present life. He was in prison while I needed that love so much.

I knew the Lord when I was 10. Followed Jesus when I was from 10 to 12 when I had Sunday school at Evangel Assembly of God (known as Evangel Family Church now). When I was 15, I went over to St Hilda's Church, baptized and thought I lived a proper life. I was changed but in the midst, I was mislead and I fell. Till last year, my life was still in sin, unrepentant, full of nonsense. I guess even in the beginning of this year, I was struggling. Now I'm more confident and trust my Lord and Saviour. His name is Jesus, my best friend.

My perspective changed. I was living a sinful, unrepentant life. I cheated many girls in my relationship life. I've hurt them in many ways. I've not been a good disciple of Jesus Christ! But Jesus has been with me, drawing me near to Him. At the start of this year, I fell to my knees, asking for a renewal, revival and restoration of my life. I dare to admit all these and more because I believe in Jesus. He doesn't condemn. His perspective is about forgiveness, love, mercy, hope, peace, joy and many more. Many of us, our perspective is about hate, merciless, hopeless and etc.

The Reality is that Jesus loves us. I testify that as I reflect upon my life. My life was rotten but He restored it. My life was full of sin but He cleanses it each day. It's been a daily affair and I hope that Jesus will keep dealing with my life and change my perspective. No one can change my life except Jesus. And I truly know that. Do you want to know Jesus? If you do, drop us a message on our tagboard and we'll get back to you.

Jesus loves you! You are His princes and princesses of God!

Be Blessed!

Love,
Kenny@